awkward.silence

I'd say I'm not confrontational, but that is a L.I.E.  I hate confrontation but think it is necessary to preserve what little might be left in a relationship, friendship... otherwise, at least for me, all that remains is resentment.  

I've been dwelling on a particular situation for the past few months, and feeling unable to confront the party, due to extenuating circumstances beyond my control, I have come to loathe this person... with every ounce of my being.  It's torture. Pure torture holding everything I want to say in, as it grows with every encounter, every day.  

It's all coming to a head, and hopefully closure very soon, but until then... I have accepted I will remain miserable.  #totallycryptic.. I'm sorry.